Week 6 ~ Am I Dreaming?

[Lindsay Lohan]

Umm, By my math I had only a 1.5 percent chance of winning the lottery. Am I dreaming? I'm gonna go ahead and say that it's karma because I was voted out against someone who campaigned to get evicted. Talking to you Sean, James and Kathy Specifically.

So much to discuss, so much to discuss.

Basically though, working with Debra and Sandra I hope. Possibly Barack. I like Lolly but apparently I can't trust her, same goes for Holly. Want Kathy and James out. Not sure on my feelings for Eve and Chris.

More indepth later.

[Lindsay Lohan]

Tired, think I'm getting sick, update tomorrow.

Basically though, setting up major alliance = Accomplished.

Me, Barack, Debra and Sandra <3

[Lindsay Lohan]

Is this what safety feels like?
Up until now I had no clue...

So much has gone on, lets see what I can remember now that I am out of my flu and nausea medicated haze. So the week started, I tried my best for HoH, placed better than average, but still failed pretty badly. Ultimately something large that took place was a strategy that Debra and I were to use that would ensure my victory, but ultimately after we took a second look at it we saw that it was unfair to do even if anyone could do it. I Think it may have hurt how Sandra feels about us. She was against it from the start, and it was stupid of my for thinking of it. Ironically James tried to get Debra to do the same thing, XD.

Before the HoH ended, I had a long and really good talk with Barack about life and the game, most importantly our deal to not target each other after week one(which is still good even though I was evicted XD). He said he liked my blunt honesty, which frankly I thought was a lie, because most people hate it XD. He then said the only person who he has had this much of a refreshing dialogue with is Sandra. Sandra being one of my two main allies coming back(the other being Debra) I then asked how he felt about Debra and he said that basically they were aligned without being aligned. So I proposed a 4 person alliance, Barack seemed really sincere and onboard at the time. Sandra was hesitant, but after talking to Debra got on board. Debra loved it and said she is starting to love the game more again. The real test is now that Debra is a final nominee, will he keep her over what many feel is another ally... Kathy.

Talking about others in the house now. Holly Marie and Lolly. Holly sent me a message discussing HoH that was supposed to go the Lolly that signified they were working together which besides Debra I have kept completely to myself because I didn't want to get nominated and Lolly has been nice to me this week and what not. I love Lolly, but she voted me out(Even if she didn't want to) and the same goes for Holly Marie, but I'm not sure on my complete trust with them. I don't trust Chris or Sausage, but they aren't my targets. I want Kathy, James and Eve out of the game the next three weeks if possible.

Then, James decided he wanted to kiss my ass now that I was back in the game and after a while of bullshitting with him I couldn't take it anymore. After that awful goodbye message and him carrying a grudge for 2 seasons, I had to say something. I simply asked him why he was pretending when he hates me guts. He went all paranoid and started yelling at me. I then told him honestly that he is my target because I can't trust him after that, after he lied to me about the vote week one. He is really stupid though, I had to hammer the same point down for an hour, because apparently doing nothing this whole game was his goal and he doesn't want to be my target.

James then decided to attack me in the lottery thread, threatening my life and all that, he looked insane. I tried my best to come out as the calm and sane one and I think I accomplished that and still won the argument. By the way, this all stemmed from me telling (I believe) Barack that I blame James, Kathy and Sean for my eviction, being the most persistent of my haters the first week. I know this because James talked to Sandra about it, and then I had to lie to Sandra and tell her it was something I said in the pre jury lounge which I feel really bad about, but I want to try and cement this alliance(atleast at that time I did).

I tried hard in the veto, and looking at my answers, I think I would have won if I had just got the first question right >.<. I'm never good at the comps in this series, although I consistantly get upper placings, I never win much XD. Then for the Luxury comp I worked with Debra and calculated things wrong due to a misunderstanding of the challenge and I won an extra vote, but Debra didn't. The good news is that Barack won it, which means our alliance holds power, the bad news is that he might be voting against her this week. I don't think he will use it, so mine is pointless anyway if I use it, it would only make a difference on odd voting number weeks. >.< I'm hoping if I tell people I'm using it, then I can scare them into keeping Debra. Apparently Chris and Sausage are on the fence like all other rounds.

My position in the game is actually decent, the game went on without me and now people have their targets and spats already while I was gone. Now I can play the swing vote and rely on that I haven't done much to anyone besides James. I'll probably fuck it up, like I usually do, but I'm going to have fun doing it and hey I got farther than Sean. That was my main goal anyway.

Things may be going good for me, not being nominated and having Lolly be so honest and nice to me as HoH, but it was bad for my main two allies Debra and Sandra.
Oh, and since my original week 1 and pre-game stuff, I just wanted to throw out there that I do LOVE Christina now and what I said about Sandra was just side affects from just reading her season two diaries. Just wanted to put that in here now incase they read it XD