Christina's Confessions-Week 2

[Christina Aguilera]

Well, this game isn't starting out well for me, at all. Surprise.

I voted to keep both Baldwin and Lohan, and lo and behold, neither of them remains in this game.

Not only that, but Debra left my Faction, and I picked up Levine, who I think switched to be on the same team with Sausage, and also possibly to evict me. He, Barack, and Sausage need to be dealt with sooner or later. I don't know what his problem with me is, but I want to get to the bottom of it, he and Sean both. At least I know Barack has problems with me because he finds me annoying.

Honestly, however, I'm sick and tired of everyone treating me the way they do, I am a person and I have feelings. However, right now, I'll grin and bear it.

So HOH happens and fucking Firecrotch decides to monopolize my grapes, and I lose a +1 and 2 chances for a -5 and I lost the HOH because of it >. I really wanted it, because I'm tired of being viewed as useless, and I would've loved an opportunity to nominate Levine and get him out of here before he can get too big a foothold in this house, but lo and behold Mingin wins HOH, someone I voted out of the house last week, who can probably easily be manipulated by someone like Levine and get me nominated for not replying to his PM. Oh, and I lost all my chances, so basically, I'm not in a good spot right now.

I'm hoping Mingin gets on today, I can feel him out, possibly cut a deal, whatever I have to do to make sure I stay off the block and Levine gets on it.

The one positive thing that came out of all this negativity is Chris is now on my Faction, which means I have a friend and ally on my side not named Orlando who couldn't compete in HOH, and if I'm nominated he might save me with veto, I definitely hope he would.

This is going to be a long, hard week.

[Christina Aguilera]

I'm not nominated, Levine's on the block, I'm safe, could this BE any better?! ^_^

After a very long conversation with Bahooski last night, he told me I was one of the only people entirely safe this week, which made me ecstatic. I honestly didn't know what he'd do since I think he probably assumes(as he is correct to do so) that I was a vote to evict him last week.

Due to this, I was quite nervous about the prospect of going on the block this week, seeing as I had a raging Levine after me because I threw him a cabbage. Hmm, Adam, have you ever heard of strategy? You have, right? I don't know where you stand, you're new to my team, I fear for what you would've done when you had power, and I wanted HoH, myself, only makes sense to give you a cabbage, right? Oh, and giving me the cold shoulder on AIM is TOTALLY a mature way to handle things

So, after Mingin wins HOH, he asks me what I would've done, and I don't hesitate at all to tell him to nominate Levine, pointing out that Levine is very possibly the biggest threat in the game, and that this would be a golden opportunity to get rid of him. He agrees, but said he was worried about ruffling feathers, so he likely went out to get the votes before he made nominations, which was wise. The one thing that is unsettling about this whole situation is that he has a POV advantage, and for a challenge competitor like him, that could be what puts him over the top and gets him the win, we'll see.

Levine was nominated next to Sausage, which is great for both me and everyone else, because now Sausage can't fight for Levine in the veto, and only Levine will pull off Levine, which is also good.

On the other side of the house, the nominees weren't so good. Nicki and Lolly went on the block on the Sassy Faction. URGH! What is this? Why is it that people I consider myself close to or at least friendly with get nominated on the Sassy, further than that if I have to lose someone I'm close to why can't it be Debra? The longer she hangs around in this game the more likely it is she'll win.....AGAIN! Oh well, when I get a shot, I'll try to backdoor her or something. I <3 Debra and I will have to apologize up and down for this after the game, but again, I'm here to win this time.

Anyway, back to nominees, Lolly was formerly on my faction and I trust Nicki a lot, so either way it's lose-lose on that side once again. Last week it was a case of Strength vs. Loyalty, this week it's a case of Friend vs. Person who seems to like me, not good.

[Christina Aguilera]

As I was suspecting all week due to how Levine was acting over his nomination, Sean wanted to nominate me with the Diamond Power of Veto, and that he did.

You're a fucking spineless bitch, Sean, and you lack a personality. Seriously. Nominating me because of how I played in another game? Grow the fuck up, you little shit. If by some God-Given Miracle I stay, and know that I will try and try, I might switch factions JUST to have a shot to win HOH and nominate him, I honestly would fuck my entire game over at this point just for an opportunity to get him out. I don't care anymore. He sucks.

I had a feeling this would happen all week, which is why I went balls-out for the veto. I'm 99% sure I'm going home tonight, so this is, sadly, my final confessional in Starz. Ever.

Votes against me: Sean, Adam, Sausage, Barack, Kathy
Votes for me: Orlando, Debra, James, Nicki(?)
In the air: Lolly, Sandra, Eve, Holly Marie

I'm going to need 3 of those four wildcards to survive, which I don't think I will. I'll probably be going out something like 10-3, which just blows.

I think the reason I am most disappointed is because I was put up with the DPoV for "playing the same way as I did last season", which really sucks, because as you know from reading this, I was trying to spread my wings and play my own game, and I'm really disappointed that I'm probably not going to get the opportunity to do this now. I was looking forward to not being a Debra sheep and playing my own game for once, but it looks like this will not happen now. I wish Chris the best of luck in the game, and I hope he does great!

So, since I'm pretty sure I'm going home in a blowout, I want to leave with some parting words for you guys.

Penn, I want to thank you so much for inviting me back to the house when everyone said I don't deserve a second chance. I'm sorry I went out this way and couldn't do more with the opportunity.

Pine, thank you for always being supportive of me as a person. It was your statements in Housecalls last season that made me realize that I can play better than I play when I'm playing with Debra, and to stop letting her use and abuse me in games, I don't deserve that at all.

To the houseguests, when you read this:

Levine-I have no problem with you, but you seem to have serious problems with me, and they don't seem like they'll ever go away.

Nicki-Thanks for being a friend and being a shoulder for me when I came to you about my fears of some players in this game.

Orlando-Keep being you. <3 you.

Debra-When this opens up I know I will receive a lot of flack from you. Debra, as a person I adore you, but in a game, I've played sheep to you too many times, and if you want to work with me in the future, please learn to play "give-or-take" when it comes to me, and stop refusing to help me when I need it(See CYS).

Sean-You're an ass.

Sandra-Monique, you are a really sweet lady and the fact that you're on the Sassy Faction is just a travesty. You're a wonderful person, stay in touch.

Kathy-No hard feelings from you either. I understand.

Chris-Even though our alliance lasted only 2 weeks, I would have been loyal to the bone to you in this game and I really hope we get a chance to work together again someday.

Sausage-I have no issues with you, and I understand it's just a game.

Barack-Even though I don't think we'll ever settle our personal problems, I appreciate you treating me with respect while in the game, because I treat you with respect.

Mingin-GO REDSKINS!

The rest of you-I didn't get to know you guys too well, but you seem like nice enough people, and I wish you luck in the rest of the game!

It's been a wonderful experience over the last two seasons, and I'm really happy I got given this opportunity again, thank you so much, I'm sorry I let you down.

Christina "Express Fighter" OUT!

[Jenna Fischer]

lol, what? nothing for me? i see how it is.

[Christina Aguilera]

OMG I'm sorry Andii!! I love you!!! I was writing this in a very distraught mood.


Andii-Thanks for being the awesome person that you are, never change!!

[Jenna Fischer]

Yay! Why thank you. I do try.